... Although, do you think Battle Armor might be better? The curses are inconvenient... But not as dangerous as... [ well. as being outright attacked. ]
[ A faint smile. ] If you're really thinking of that kind of thing, talk to Ray-san. But I have a feeling he'd tell you not to worry about him so much.
Have you spoken with Cunning since we went to see him together?
[ His smile warms briefly, touching his eyes. ] Yeah. I know exactly what you mean. Seriously, though. If it's something you think you may want to do, talk it over with him. That way you can agree on a plan together.
[ Yu will nod, looking thoughtful as he sits back in his chair. ]
I feel the same way. He's an interesting person. I think I can understand why others see him as harsh, but I can't help but feel he has good intentions.
I'll do that. I just don't know if I'll really be able to help. I feel like... [ like she hasn't been helping. but Madoka also feels like - she doesn't want to bother anyone with her insecurities. So she just trails off. ]
The longer this goes on, the more I think they all have good intentions. And I don't think that any of them would be a bad god. It's hard to play favorites when you think everyone would be good at the job.
I don't know. It's just that - I have a wish for if I win, but it isn't really the reason I came. I just came here because I thought that... If this contest had to happen, I'd like to at least make it a little easier for everyone.
But I'm not sure if I've really done anything to really make it better.
Not much. And I'm used to that, in a way. [ her role back home is imperative, but it means she only interacts with people once. ] But I just thought that I'd be able to do more.
I think I know how you feel, [ he'll finally say, soft. ] To be honest, I think that kind of thing constantly. How I'm not doing enough, and how I should be doing more.
But if I said that to you, what would you tell me?
[ She still wants to argue. Majima still hurt himself - Senri and Mizuki don't really need her. She hasn't done much to help Ray, it's all the other way around. And Takaomi...
She wasn't even very close with Ai and Rachel.
But even if she feels insecure in what she's done for them, it would be insulting to speak on their behalf - to insist that they think so negatively of her. So instead she shakes her head. ]
That's not what I mean. All the people who care about you, Madoka... I'm sure they'd say they rely on you. It doesn't have to be for the things that you do. It can just be for the person that you are. Aren't you already enough?
[ That's another thing that's hard to argue. So she's emotional support. She understands that, and agrees... ]
... Sorry.You're right... [ Mostly she just doesn't want him to keep having to pep talk circles around her. But it makes her feel better knowing that he would probably be willing to. ]
It's just hard to feel as useful without my magic.
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... but, I don't have any guarantee I can make it happen, either. I hope I can.
[ ... of course Madoka had Shelter, he thinks quietly to himself. It suits her the most. ]
... a couple of us are looking after him, Madoka. [ as kindly as he can manage, even if he is GOD damn exhausted. ] Let's all do our best, alright?
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... Although, do you think Battle Armor might be better? The curses are inconvenient... But not as dangerous as... [ well. as being outright attacked. ]
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I don't really dislike Cunning, though...
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Have you spoken with Cunning since we went to see him together?
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... I haven't talked to Cunning again yet, but I planned to. I want to get to know him better.
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[ Yu will nod, looking thoughtful as he sits back in his chair. ]
I feel the same way. He's an interesting person. I think I can understand why others see him as harsh, but I can't help but feel he has good intentions.
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The longer this goes on, the more I think they all have good intentions. And I don't think that any of them would be a bad god. It's hard to play favorites when you think everyone would be good at the job.
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He lets her talk, lapsing into a silence that persists even when she's done. He's just kind of watching her, inscrutable. ]
You feel like what, Madoka?
[ Gently.
He's just gonna. Set the rest aside for now. What she started to say catches at him too much to ignore. ]
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I just feel like I haven't done as much to make this all more pleasant for everyone as I had hoped to.
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[ The look he gives her is ... concerned, but open. He just wants to hear her out. ]
What more had you hoped to do?
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I don't know. It's just that - I have a wish for if I win, but it isn't really the reason I came. I just came here because I thought that... If this contest had to happen, I'd like to at least make it a little easier for everyone.
But I'm not sure if I've really done anything to really make it better.
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You really don't think you've much impact? [ questioning. it's remarkable to him, that she can't know her own worth--
but then, isn't that what's always hardest to understand? ]
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Not much. And I'm used to that, in a way. [ her role back home is imperative, but it means she only interacts with people once. ] But I just thought that I'd be able to do more.
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I think I know how you feel, [ he'll finally say, soft. ] To be honest, I think that kind of thing constantly. How I'm not doing enough, and how I should be doing more.
But if I said that to you, what would you tell me?
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That's not true at all...! You've been a big help to everyone!
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You see what I'm trying to say, right?
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[ well yes, but ]
It's different.
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[ Not pressing, not judging. Just inexorable, and endlessly patient. ]
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What would Majima-san say? I know he was counting on you today, to keep himself together. What about Senri? Or Mizuki-san?
[ Yu shifts slightly, sighing out. ]
Do you think Ray-san would say that about you? Shishimaru-san? [ ... ] What about Mizuno-san, or Rachel?
[ He knows those may hit hard, so he gentles his voice. He's trying to make a point, but he doesn't want to upset her, either. ]
Do you think any of those people would say you just complain?
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She wasn't even very close with Ai and Rachel.
But even if she feels insecure in what she's done for them, it would be insulting to speak on their behalf - to insist that they think so negatively of her. So instead she shakes her head. ]
N-no... They're nicer than that.
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Jeez.
Yu shakes his head. ]
That's not what I mean. All the people who care about you, Madoka... I'm sure they'd say they rely on you. It doesn't have to be for the things that you do. It can just be for the person that you are. Aren't you already enough?
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... Sorry.You're right... [ Mostly she just doesn't want him to keep having to pep talk circles around her. But it makes her feel better knowing that he would probably be willing to. ]
It's just hard to feel as useful without my magic.
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Your magic...
[ Have they ever talked about it before? ... does she want to? ]
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