dupelicate: (dissatisfaction)

[personal profile] dupelicate 2019-03-24 04:13 am (UTC)(link)
I didn't do anything.

[...]

I just kept... hoping we'd find something else. Or find a reason.

Find... anything.
dupelicate: (i deserve nothing)

[personal profile] dupelicate 2019-03-24 04:24 am (UTC)(link)
He's...

[his voice hesitates, nearly cracks.]

He's my best friend. He practically raised me. He's forgiven me, watched me, trusted me... he...

He...

[he trails off, falling silent, unable to find more words. Instead, he slumps.]

I'm so stupid.
dupelicate: (choices were made)

[personal profile] dupelicate 2019-03-24 04:33 am (UTC)(link)
[The question breaks him out of it, sidelines him enough to collect his thoughts, and turn, full attention on Madoka.]

...Yeah.

Please.
dupelicate: (WOWOW)

[personal profile] dupelicate 2019-03-24 04:53 am (UTC)(link)
[That gets him listening, gives him pause.

When Madoka stops, he's still hanging on her every word, staring at her with a child-like focus.]


...Get hurt.

[He nods, once, waiting with bated breath.]
dupelicate: (oh noo)

[personal profile] dupelicate 2019-03-24 05:33 am (UTC)(link)
[He listens.

It's... uncanny. Uncanny, that Madoka is here, sharing this story. Uncanny, that she's here at all, reliving something this awful, more aware of the endless march of time and inevitability of death and rebirth than anyone else he's met so far.

And when she finishes, he doesn't even realize that he's crying, until the first drops hit his hands.]


His wish...?

[Despite the tears, his voice is even, normal.]

I know what it is.
dupelicate: (dont dreeeam its over)

[personal profile] dupelicate 2019-03-25 05:16 am (UTC)(link)
[He starts, as Madoka's hands touch his face—but doesn't push her away. Instead, Luke closes his eyes, and lets out a slow exhale.]

I know what it is, because it's the same as mine.

He wants me to come back home. To live.

[...]

Madoka... in my world, I'm dead—really dead, not temporary. Guy... he doesn't have any powers like your friend... but I think...

...I think he saw this as his last chance.
dupelicate: (consequences have actions)

[personal profile] dupelicate 2019-03-25 11:47 am (UTC)(link)
[He laughs, sudden and startling, without any humor.]

I don't know about that. [The tone is defeated, as if all the fight has already flown.] I don't even know if I'm worth it, especially now.

What makes me better than anyone else's wish, huh? Nothing. Everyone is fighting for something they care about, something they value. If I'm going to get anything, I don't want it to cost others. I don't want to give up on what I believe in.

[...]

Guy... I understand it. But I don't... I can't...

...I couldn't let him get away with it. Because of that.
dupelicate: (choices were made)

[personal profile] dupelicate 2019-03-26 10:24 am (UTC)(link)
Then... I don't want a miracle. I want to work on things my way. I'll be satisfied with the results, no matter what, if I can make them myself.

[It's not bitter, just reflective—and he's strangely calm, talking about it.]
dupelicate: (thinkin bout thos sausages)

[personal profile] dupelicate 2019-03-27 04:36 am (UTC)(link)
That's... true. Nothing, I guess.

[He shrugs, with an exhale.]

Make the most of my last few weeks, or at least, make the most of my time until someone decides I'm weak enough to pull a Guy on me.

[...]

I think if I win... it'll just be luck. I'm starting to think that's all there is to this.
dupelicate: (feelin nauseous honestly)

[personal profile] dupelicate 2019-03-28 11:00 am (UTC)(link)
I guess everyone is going to approach the whole thing in different ways, but...

[he'd just been talking to Zoe about it.]

...It's hard to believe anyone actually went for the death option. Even if it's... kind of set up for that.

[the trials. the curfew. everything.]

I just want to keep doing it my way. Win or lose. I think I'll be happy with the results, then, no matter what.
dupelicate: (cool shoes)

[personal profile] dupelicate 2019-03-29 09:32 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah. [He looks up, giving Madoka a twitch of a smile, tired and sad as it may be.] I'm with you. I'll keep going, and doing my best, but I'll never hurt anyone.

[...]

Maybe the gods can learn from that.