Homura-chan kept going back to before I made my wish, so there were a lot of them. Wishing to revive a stray cat, or wishing just to be a magical girl - to be useful...
Magical girls fight witches, but magical girls also become witches. That's the cycle. So, my final wish was erase all witches before they're created, with my own hands. S-so, um... I'm the law that sees them off so that they just pass away peacefully, instead.
[ Nonon's brain isn't really wrapping around the concept of timeloops or time paradoxes very well. It's beyond her comprehension right now. Give her a moment as the cogs turn.
When the understanding comes, her expression darkens. ]
Did you know you'd turn into a witch when you made a wish to become a magical girl?
[ ... These days, she understands where Kyuubey was coming from - and why what he was doing was necessary. Why it was 'right' to his race. But at the same time, she still hasn't forgiven his original methods. ]
... Not the first time, no. But... The final time, yes.
[ it isn't a lie. even if it's hard, it's the right thing to do. and the fact that it's worth it - that she's doing something good and useful... that makes her happier than anything. ]
You remind me a little of someone I know... who would shoulder whatever she could to do what she thinks is best to achieve what she thinks is worthwhile.
[ She smiles, and there's genuine fondness in it. ]
Your personalities on the surface aren't that similar, though.
Yeah, you both want to do something good for the world at the expense of yourself.
[ Nonon grabs more skincare items to put on her face like an essence. Even as she pats it on her face, there's no hiding the devotion that laces her voice. ]
Satsuki-chan is beautiful. She's built a magnificent castle in her heart that can't be torn down by anyone. She's the type that makes contigency plans for her contingency plans.
That wish of yours makes you sound like you're by yourself. Was I wrong?
[ It's an offhand question without any pointed needling, but Nonon is also unfortunately always ready to talk about Satsuki Kiryuuin. ]
Satsuki-chan is amazing, but she's not alone. [ Because she's there. As are their select group of friends. ] When she was a lot younger, she used to be more like you. Sweet and docile. So it's not like you can't get there if you want to.
[ Madoka is very into talking about Not Madoka right now, so she just idly nods to that question and brushes it off too to focus on this Satsuki person. ]
Ehh, really? How inspiring.
Not being alone is impressive in its own way - it means she has good, um, leadership skills. Right? Even when I wasn't alone, I wasn't a leader at all. I was always following someone else.
[ Madoka, you gotta talk about yourself one day. Don't think Nonon doesn't notice that. ]
She's a great leader, and she knew how to scout the right people to help her. We're a good team. [ Nonon has never sounded this soft. ] You had your best friends, right? Tell me about them.
[ Madoka is sooo happy and content right now; this is sapping out the stress from her much better than any face mask or self care routine. ]
When I met her, Homura-chan was really shy, and her body was weak, too. But she fought really hard, for a really long time, just for me. She got so strong, and she was smart and resourceful...
Even when I didn't realize how much she was doing for me, and even when I couldn't be there for her, she kept doing her best.
Everything I did was thanks to her hard work, not my own.
It sounds like she really cares for you. Not many people would change like that for just anyone. But what do you mean everything you did was thanks to her, not you?
... Talking about it always gets kind of complicated. But...
[ it's not like she minds, it's just that people usually seem confused. ]
Homura-chan's power was to go back in time, and she was dedicated to trying to protect me. That's what gave me so much potential as a magical girl - hundreds of timelines were connected, all centered around... Me. I was able to make a very powerful wish to rewrite the laws of the universe, but only because of what she did.
[ If Nonon were a science nerd, she'd liken this to potential energy, but she's not! So Madoka's right in that Nonon doesn't understand it all, but she does get the essence of it. ]
Her love for you made you powerful, but have you considered that you could've given her the strength and the reason to do all that? In friendship, in love, things aren't so one-sided like that. It's a two way street, if you two love each other, and it does sound like you love her.
[ People draw Nonon in Madoka's magical girl outfit all the time, but she's more Homura-kin. ]
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Magical girls fight witches, but magical girls also become witches. That's the cycle. So, my final wish was erase all witches before they're created, with my own hands. S-so, um... I'm the law that sees them off so that they just pass away peacefully, instead.
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When the understanding comes, her expression darkens. ]
Did you know you'd turn into a witch when you made a wish to become a magical girl?
[ Her voice is clipped. ]
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... Not the first time, no. But... The final time, yes.
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[ Nonon isn't the most intelligent person in any room, but she can connect dots easily enough. ]
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That's admirable, but are you happy?
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[ it isn't a lie. even if it's hard, it's the right thing to do. and the fact that it's worth it - that she's doing something good and useful... that makes her happier than anything. ]
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[ And Nonon does seem to accept that. ]
You remind me a little of someone I know... who would shoulder whatever she could to do what she thinks is best to achieve what she thinks is worthwhile.
[ She smiles, and there's genuine fondness in it. ]
Your personalities on the surface aren't that similar, though.
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[ it's embarrassing to be sort of praised... ]
Do you want to tell me about her?
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[ Nonon grabs more skincare items to put on her face like an essence. Even as she pats it on her face, there's no hiding the devotion that laces her voice. ]
Satsuki-chan is beautiful. She's built a magnificent castle in her heart that can't be torn down by anyone. She's the type that makes contigency plans for her contingency plans.
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She sounds amazing. I'm nowhere near that special - I'm not very good at planning, and I'm really helpless when I'm on my own.
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[ It's an offhand question without any pointed needling, but Nonon is also unfortunately always ready to talk about Satsuki Kiryuuin. ]
Satsuki-chan is amazing, but she's not alone. [ Because she's there. As are their select group of friends. ] When she was a lot younger, she used to be more like you. Sweet and docile. So it's not like you can't get there if you want to.
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Ehh, really? How inspiring.
Not being alone is impressive in its own way - it means she has good, um, leadership skills. Right? Even when I wasn't alone, I wasn't a leader at all. I was always following someone else.
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She's a great leader, and she knew how to scout the right people to help her. We're a good team. [ Nonon has never sounded this soft. ] You had your best friends, right? Tell me about them.
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My best friend is Homura-chan! She's really cool and smart...! And then there's Sayaka-chan, Kyouko-chan, and Mami-san.
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When I met her, Homura-chan was really shy, and her body was weak, too. But she fought really hard, for a really long time, just for me. She got so strong, and she was smart and resourceful...
Even when I didn't realize how much she was doing for me, and even when I couldn't be there for her, she kept doing her best.
Everything I did was thanks to her hard work, not my own.
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It sounds like she really cares for you. Not many people would change like that for just anyone. But what do you mean everything you did was thanks to her, not you?
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[ it's not like she minds, it's just that people usually seem confused. ]
Homura-chan's power was to go back in time, and she was dedicated to trying to protect me. That's what gave me so much potential as a magical girl - hundreds of timelines were connected, all centered around... Me. I was able to make a very powerful wish to rewrite the laws of the universe, but only because of what she did.
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Her love for you made you powerful, but have you considered that you could've given her the strength and the reason to do all that? In friendship, in love, things aren't so one-sided like that. It's a two way street, if you two love each other, and it does sound like you love her.
[ People draw Nonon in Madoka's magical girl outfit all the time, but she's more Homura-kin. ]
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[ #friendzonedddd ]
But I didn't always know that. In a lot of timelines I didn't know her at all. I couldn't support her.
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[ She doesn't know if she should feel more sorry for Madoka or for Homura here. ]
If you didn't know, you can't help that. What's done is done. What matters more is what you do when you do know.
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Mmhmm. I did my best to make the most of everything she did for me.
[ also i abandoned her forever but that's. fine. ]
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Nonon is 99% sure Homura is in love with Madoka, and she believes Madoka believes in her feelings of friendship. ]
You made it so she didn't have to keep going back in time, but you're now separated.
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