[ Her body trembles against his at first, but after a thick swallow, she gets a hold of herself. Somehow, being soothed can make it hard to keep the floodgates closed, but she's determined.
After a moment, she draws back and tries to wipe at her eyes discreetly. ]
[ Softly. There's some concern on his face as he watches her. Broaching this won't be easy, and it's going to be even rougher when she's already upset. But there's really nothing for it. ]
[ The way he watches her is ... complicated. His expression is utterly unreadable, even moreso when he laces his fingers together and leans slightly against the bridge they make, obscuring the lower half of his face. ]
You must trust Ray-san a great deal. Is that right?
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[ Yu huffs a sigh through his nose and spreads his hands. ]
I'll admit, I was pretty alarmed at first. Though part of that might be because of the way Ray approached me. [ With quiet humor. ] You know, he told me to hold it against you, since he thought what you did was pretty reckless. He's an honest guy.
[ A breath in; out. ]
My decision to trust you wasn't made lightly. I really do believe you'll act in the best interests of everyone. If these are the choices you made, then I'm fine with them, Kaname-san.
... but a little warning might be nice, next time.
[ Madoka examines him for a minute. Despite her generally delicate demeanor, she doesn't appear to regret her actions. Even when they're. Kind of getting her in trouble? (Well, this is very mild trouble, to be fair.)
Still, she seems confident in the decision. ]
I haven't told anyone else.
[ Meaning: not even Senri, who by the sound of things, she trusts a fair bit more than Ray. ]
[ There's no anger in him, truly. Nor disappointment. He honestly does seem at ease.
He considers her, and murmurs: ]
I meant what I said, that you had nothing to apologize for.
... in a way, this is a matter of my ideals, too. I can't claim to have faith in others and rescind it at the first possible sign of trouble. What kind of faith would that be?
... But it wouldn't be wrong to doubt someone when you learn more about them. We only just met, and first impressions can be wrong.
Sometimes people make bad choices, even if they think they're right. Or even if they're good people. I'm not perfect.
[ ITT: arguing about who is more valid. But also, despite saying this, she still isn't expressing regret. Just - understanding, for if Yu were to change his opinion of her. ]
And of course you're right. But I don't want to doubt you too easily, either. I should be willing to give you a chance, shouldn't I? If you give me reason to change my mind, then ... well, I'll deal with that when it happens. [ Mildly, and very straightforward. ]
I wish you had told me first. Actually, I wish you had asked my permission to divulge my god. But what's done is done.
You're a kind person, Kaname-san. But you're practical, too, and you're not naive.
... I don't think you'll give me cause to change my mind. But I know it's possible. [ ... rather distantly: ] I suppose it's always possible.
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[ She pauses for a moment, before adding: ] Everyone comes back at the end.
[ She sounds a bit like she's reciting it, but that's her comfort in all of this. ]
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He's silent, but after a moment:
Yu offers her his hands, to take if she wants to steady herself, to stand. Whatever she needs -- he'll support her. ]
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Thank you. Sorry.
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At which point he'll give her an even more careful hug, one hand resting on top of her head. ]
You have nothing to apologize for. [ with great feeling. ]
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After a moment, she draws back and tries to wipe at her eyes discreetly. ]
I feel like I do. For not doing more...
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[ It's not rhetorical. The way he looks down at her is serious and practical. ]
Talk me through it. What more would you do, if you could?
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I know that the game is set up like this... But...
[ she doesn't like to admit he's right. logic will always have a hard time outweighing guilt. ]
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You can't take all the weight of this game on your own shoulders, Kaname-san. Remember that you're not alone.
[ Yu will nod his head in the direction of the table they usually sit at. Come on, let's go sit down. ]
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Sorry, she just... Isn't very talkative right now. She tries to find more words for him, but just ends up letting out a deep sigh. ]
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[ Softly. There's some concern on his face as he watches her. Broaching this won't be easy, and it's going to be even rougher when she's already upset. But there's really nothing for it. ]
Ray came to find me. ... Senri, too.
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Mm. He told me you'd probably want to talk to me.
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You must trust Ray-san a great deal. Is that right?
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[ which is probably an alarmingly lukewarm response to that question. ]
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You don't sound sure.
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[ which is a little different from trusting him as a person, or as a reliable friend in a contest. ]
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And Senri?
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And then Yu will huff a sound suspiciously like a laugh, sitting back in his chair and shaking his head. ]
Then I guess that's that.
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It is.
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I'll admit, I was pretty alarmed at first. Though part of that might be because of the way Ray approached me. [ With quiet humor. ] You know, he told me to hold it against you, since he thought what you did was pretty reckless. He's an honest guy.
[ A breath in; out. ]
My decision to trust you wasn't made lightly. I really do believe you'll act in the best interests of everyone. If these are the choices you made, then I'm fine with them, Kaname-san.
... but a little warning might be nice, next time.
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[ Madoka examines him for a minute. Despite her generally delicate demeanor, she doesn't appear to regret her actions. Even when they're. Kind of getting her in trouble? (Well, this is very mild trouble, to be fair.)
Still, she seems confident in the decision. ]
I haven't told anyone else.
[ Meaning: not even Senri, who by the sound of things, she trusts a fair bit more than Ray. ]
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He considers her, and murmurs: ]
I meant what I said, that you had nothing to apologize for.
... in a way, this is a matter of my ideals, too. I can't claim to have faith in others and rescind it at the first possible sign of trouble. What kind of faith would that be?
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Sometimes people make bad choices, even if they think they're right. Or even if they're good people. I'm not perfect.
[ ITT: arguing about who is more valid. But also, despite saying this, she still isn't expressing regret. Just - understanding, for if Yu were to change his opinion of her. ]
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And of course you're right. But I don't want to doubt you too easily, either. I should be willing to give you a chance, shouldn't I? If you give me reason to change my mind, then ... well, I'll deal with that when it happens. [ Mildly, and very straightforward. ]
I wish you had told me first. Actually, I wish you had asked my permission to divulge my god. But what's done is done.
You're a kind person, Kaname-san. But you're practical, too, and you're not naive.
... I don't think you'll give me cause to change my mind. But I know it's possible. [ ... rather distantly: ] I suppose it's always possible.
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[ to echo a previous conversation they had, Madoka repeats: ]
Thank you for trusting me.
I don't intend to tell anyone else. And... If Ray hasn't told you everything already, I can show you what I know.
[ It's only fair. ]
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