That's true... But I think we all know that it's not your fault. I don't think you should have to be all by yourself just because you're not saying the right thing.
[ She sighs and looks at the nail polish bottles that Madoka brought over. She still doesn't have quite the capacity to smile, but she appreciates what's going on. It's clear in the way her eyes soften. ]
Yeah. I guess so. Do you want to tell me about your adventures this week?
[ She gestures Madoka to come over and give her hand, so they can start this nail painting business. It'll be nice to have one part of her brain occupied. ]
[ Madoka starts carefully painting over Nonon's nails, making sure to get the layers evened out. ]
There were a couple more things... [ but it's still being backthreaded so i don't know exactly what yet!!! ] I wish I had talked more to Ruin while I had the chance. Maybe I could have learned more about her...
But I wonder if a world needs to be built around that idea. I think that would just happen naturally. No matter what kind of world it is, it wouldn't stay the same forever.
Um... It depends on the timeline... I have the memories from all of them, so it's varied quite a bit. The first time I made my contract within a couple of days. And the last time I had a couple of weeks.
[ You're killing her, Madoka. Her own world is nonsensical, but every time she's reminded of Madoka's time paradoxes, she just wants her brain to stop. ]
Collectively, it's been a while. Do you ever regret it?
[ She already regrets something, and she hates it. To Nonon, regret shouldn't be in the picture. She just goes for what she wants, does what she wants, and that's it. Do or die.
Now... ]
We're all trying our best. Some of the we are to do good. Some of the other we...
[ She's silent for a little while, and when she next speaks, she's very quiet. She's tempering her emotions, and it's audible in how strained her words sound. ]
He did have a good goal, once. Now... it's hard to say with the way he's been affected. Who he used to be.... and who he is now aren't completely separate, but they're still unforgivable actions.
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You just shouldn't be alone.
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[ It sounds like she acknowledges it, but it doesn't sound quite right to her still. ]
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We're due to redo our nails, huh?
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Mine got a little scratched up during the week. And I thought it would be nice to focus on something like this.
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[ She gestures Madoka to come over and give her hand, so they can start this nail painting business. It'll be nice to have one part of her brain occupied. ]
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Umm... I didn't do very much this week... But I did explore the locked room in the orphanage a little.
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[ She holds out her hand for Madoka. ]
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There were a couple more things... [ but it's still being backthreaded so i don't know exactly what yet!!! ] I wish I had talked more to Ruin while I had the chance. Maybe I could have learned more about her...
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I only talked to her about what kind of world she wanted to create and what she hoped for, but that's about it.
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It's not a terrible thing.
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But I wonder if a world needs to be built around that idea. I think that would just happen naturally. No matter what kind of world it is, it wouldn't stay the same forever.
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I guess sometimes I still think about magical girls as if they aren't a natural part of my world. But they are still a part of my universe...
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How long has it been for you? Knowing about magical girls and becoming one?
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Collectively, it's been a while. Do you ever regret it?
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... But I don't regret it at all. I could never regret something like that.
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[ She closes her eyes. ]
That's how I hope this will end, but we'll see.
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[ she speaks softly; she knows that when Nonon is down probably isn't the best time for aggressive optimism. ]
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Now... ]
We're all trying our best. Some of the we are to do good. Some of the other we...
[ are like Newt. ]
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It might have been for something good, in the long run...
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He did have a good goal, once. Now... it's hard to say with the way he's been affected. Who he used to be.... and who he is now aren't completely separate, but they're still unforgivable actions.
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