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[this poor sweet girl. senri will easily wrap his arms around her and keep her close until she pulls away first - he doesn't mind hugging for as long as she needs.]

.... I think so too.

Sorry you have to go through all this.

[ She stays there for a long moment. She used to take a lot of comfort in hugs with her friends and - it reminds her of actually feeling vulnerable. It's glad that she doesn't lately, but... Well, that's still a loss, too.

She just nods at his words, holds on for a moment longer, and then draws back. ]

You too. You're not used to it, are you?

[ She says it as if she is used to it, but it's still clearly getting to her, so...? ]

[even when she pulls back, senri will reach out to softly pat her on the head briefly - before pulling his hand away and offering her a sad smile]

What gave me away? All the crying? The lashing out?

[ . . . . ]

Mm. This whole thing... just feels like it belongs in fiction for me.

[ Madoka gives a quiet laugh at that, under her breath. He's so self aware... ]

I'm not used to it being so - organized. I can't decide if it makes it better or worse.

[ . . . . . ]

I can't either. Is it worse to wake up and find that someone you know is dead - or condemn someone else with your own words?

Either way, people here lose someone, whether it's a friend or a brother...

They'll come back.

[ She knows that doesn't make it okay. It doesn't make it not murder, it doesn't make it not a loss. But it's kind of the one good thing she's clinging to, here. ]

[ . . . . right.

in this case it's different, but he settles for not mentioning that now. instead he just nods and agrees.]

... even if we don't get what we want, we're at the status quo, right?

So at least it's not completely over.

I think... It's important to honor that everyone has something they want. Even if they don't get it, they wanted it enough to be here.

Do you want to tell me what it is that you wish for?

[ . . . . senri pauses.]

You told me yours, right... It's a really good cause. I think it's a wonderful wish.

It'd be nice if mine was as large as that - I'm almost embarrassed to say it out loud in comparison.

[ Madoka shakes her head. ]

It's okay if it's not the same kind of wish. It's nice.

[senri pauses for a long, long time.]

.... I have two now - but I need to see if the gods will let me figure out a way to get both, or if I can accomplish one with a favor.

I came here because I'd like to see my family.

[though he doesn't seem to go into further detail than that]

The other is... I want to take Shiks' wish on as my own.

[ Madoka doesn't need to know the details. it's a familiar kind of wish, and she knows it doesn't take circumstances like hers to have complicated family situations.

she brings a hand up to touch his arm and hopes that's soothing. even if... that second part has her a bit hesitant. ]

How many other people's wishes do you plan on taking responsibility for?

[the hand at his arms earns her a smile and he tilts his head at the question]

... that's a good question. I don't know.

But Shiks' wish was already for another person and I can't help but think... that's important too. Everyone who comes here with their wishes - some of them are really amazing. Yours is amazing.

I want to see it come true, no matter what.

.... I don't know if it can happen, but shouldn't I try?

It can't hurt to try.

It... Would be nice if the rules could be changed like that.

... I'm going to keep asking gods. They have a lot of power and if I speak to the one who wins... maybe it'll all be okay.

[that's what he's hoping for, at least]

They might have rules they need to follow, too.

... But I hope that you can do it.

I think they do - right now, anyway.

But when the contest is over, they get to build the whole world. And they might even be able to grant favors to people who weren't on their team.

[and he likes the thought of that. he likes it a lot.]

As long as it's the right god.

That's true... They're not like me. They're creating a whole new world, not rewriting one.

[ Madoka has doubts, but she's able to cheer herself up with that idea. ]

... I'm glad that our gods get along.

[Senri tilts his head.]

I wouldn't be surprised to hear that they do.

Are you going to be staying with your god, do you think?

I think so. I talked to him, and he seemed really nice.

And I think that if their world is going to be unbalanced... Leaning towards more sincerity doesn't sound bad.

[ah.]

.... that suits you, Madopyon. It definitely suits you a lot.

Beauty said that he wouldn't be upset if Sincerity was the one who won the competition.... so I might try to go to that team at the end, if I can't try to turn Beauty's numbers around a little.

I'm happy that Sincerity is so popular...!

Beauty was really nice, too, when I talked to them. But it would be really nice if we were on the same side.

[ Madoka pauses because that reminds her, and she likes Senri so she wants to tell him as soon as she thinks it: ]

I'm happy that you trusted me to tell me who you're aligned with. It's hard to figure out everyone else...

[Senri melts a little at that - ]

Well if it's Madopyon asking, I think there's a good chance people would be a lot more willing to admit it.

... but I think the more we talk to people, the easier it'll get to figure out who they might be aligned with. It sounds like it's not just about the things they value, but gods initially held their hands out to the people who might be similar to themselves and agree with their worldview.

When I talked to all the gods who held their hands out to me - er, well, most.... that lined up with what I thought too.

I hope that you're right, and that more and more people will feel like they can trust me. And each other, too.

I know that it's a contest, and I know it can't be perfect, but it would be nice if we could go through it all as friends.

I think so too, Madopyon. Even now.... I really hope that that's the way that everything turns out. I know that it'd make me the happiest too.

Maybe we can work together with everyone to make it happen.

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