Entrapta Private Convos

[frilly]

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[hairckervoice]

[ honestly entrapta's in not much better shape. she's here as usual, but she keeps looking at her friendship bracelet (jude has one just like it). ]

Hello, Madoka.

[ honestly she's not great at nuance but even entrapta can see that she's upset. ]

I think... we are probably feeling the same way.

[frilly]

I'm sure that everyone is.

Aside from whoever... [ you know. killed a bunch of people... ]

[hairckervoice]

..... Yes. This is getting to be more emotionally difficult the longer it goes on.

[ it turns out that having friends die sucks a lot. ]

[frilly]

It's been hard from the start, but... The longer this goes on, the better we know each other. [ or, think they all know each other? ]

[hairckervoice]

And more chances for our trust to be betrayed.

[ .... ]

Has this happened to you? Before?

[frilly]

[ she hesitates for a long moment. ]

People have... Done things I didn't like, or didn't understand. Things that hurt me. [ roundabout way of saying yes? she's trying to minimize it, because with bigger perspective, she understands it all. ]

And... [ and then there's kyuubey. in general. madoka doesn't want to get into that so she just nods. ]

[hairckervoice]

[ it's time for madoka to exposition about her anime again. or is it. ]

So... we have that in common. I am sorry, Madoka.

[frilly]

[ don't make me!!! ]

I'm sorry, too...

Sometimes... Friends hurt each other, or make bad decisions. But they were still my friends, and they were doing their best.

[ except kyuubey. he was not her friend. but...... even he was doing his best..... ]

[hairckervoice]

[ do it. ]

You still remained friends with them after they hurt you?

[ kyubey was doing his best, ok. ]

[frilly]

Nobody is perfect.

Not everything is forgivable, but if I can understand why someone did what they did... Then that can be enough.

[hairckervoice]

Does that apply to people like Newt?

[ who ended up being kind of a huge bitch!! ]

[frilly]

... I don't know.

I don't think we should be hurting each other when this could all be resolved in different ways. But... Some wishes can't be granted any other way. I don't know what he wished for. I don't know if it was worth it.

[hairckervoice]

Have you considered what you might do if one of your friends ends up doing something like that?

[ like she's not saying majima but she's kind of saying majima!! ]

[frilly]

... I'd like to think that none of my friends would do that.

[ she hesitates to expand on that any further, but straight up denial wouldn't be fair to Entrapta. to a friend. ]

If they did, I would ask them why. What they wanted so badly. And probably... Even if that answer was something I understood, I would still be angry.

[hairckervoice]

I would like to think that, too. However.... people can surprise you. Not always in good ways.

[ speaking from her own experience, as madoka will probably pick up sooner or later. ]

I see. I don't know... if I was angry at Newt.

[ just sad. ]

[frilly]

...

[ yeah it all seemed a bit. specific to not be from her own history... ]

I think that means you're a nice person. If you don't jump to being angry, first, even when you're hurt.

[hairckervoice]

[ get her tragic backstory madoka it's only fair. ]

Me?

[ ????? ]

I think that you are much nicer than I am, so I can't follow the logic.

[frilly]

It's not a contest to see who's nicer.

[ . . . ]

Did you... Want to talk about it? [ Either how she's feeling or - whatever that blatant past trauma was. ]

[hairckervoice]

If it were, you would win. [ just saying. ]

I'm not sure. This competition is taking quite the emotional toll, I'm not sure how to handle it.

[frilly]

[ she shakes her head no, but also to dismiss it. she's not here for a friendliness debate!! ]

I think that's probably true for everyone. It's been a lot to go through in such a short amount of time.

[hairckervoice]

[ madoka: i'm not here to not make friends. ]

Things have escalated to a point I haven't imagined.

Newt... I felt like he could truly understand me, though. Maybe more than anyone else here.

[frilly]

[ it's the opposite. madoka shows up to the cutthroat competition like: i'm just here to make friends, not win! :) ]

I'm sorry. It's hard to lose someone that understands you. And it's hard when they do something that you don't like - something you didn't think they would do.

[hairckervoice]

[ i said not not make friends!!!! ]

I didn't believe anyone could, before I came here. At least... not human people.

[ robots are great though :/ ]

[frilly]

[ what up im cola im 28 and i never learned to fucking read ]

Why is that...?

[hairckervoice]

[ dw cola none of us know how, least of all me. ]

[ also, it's time.... for tragic backstory. ]

My.... friends, on Etheria... They had difficulty understanding me, too. They didn't like me, because I was different from them.

That's what Catra told me.